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Thursday, November 08, 2007
Say What YouWant, Say What You Mean...Question Yourself, Are You Really What You Seem?
Hm I've let a little too much time go by since I've logged on here last. Too much to dive into at the moment but things are going down a good path right now. I moved out of the condo a week or so ago and Im living with my mom again, which is stressful but the best choice for me right now. I've bene out to sea and its time to find my island and my mom will really help motivate me...aka kick me in the ass...so i can get that done.
Working on things with Matt is a 2 steps forward, 1 step back process. Just when we get to a good place between us I allow slip ups and then he starts getting protective and attached again. Its rather strange but as I was typing that I got a view into some one else's head for a second and a greater understanding of a situation. Huh that was a nice little moment of clarity.
Ive been hanging out with Jenna Gags a lot again, I missed her. We had a falling out the end of last year and had started to put things our friendship back together this spring but hadnt seen or talked to her too much over the summer (which is always the case because ppl are so busy doing their own things). But recently we've been going out a lot together and having our good old heart to hearts. I missed her. Ive had girl friends that I can open up to and talk stuff over with, but never as complete and deep as Jenna...partly because she has such an insight into my past but mostly because she knows my character so damn well. Needless to say its been GREAT having her back around!!!
Still hanging out with Steve here and there. Things are kinda of weird on that front to say the least. I let him know a few weeks back exactly where I stood on my feelings with him a couple weeks ago and he didnt take that too well....turned into a dick and stopped talking to me for awhile...but I was only trying to be fair. He was really getting into me and I didnt want him to think this was going some place I had no intention on letting it get to. But we've started to hang out again here and there, trying to keep the conversation light because when it comes to deep shit he cant handle it. The kid has 1 level and when he starts to crack into deeper stuff he turns into a mess in every way you can think of. He just isnt a soul searcher simply because he just cant handle it. Which is fine, not everyone needs to be...but I need some one who is...
Met Jesus on Halloween at Landmark...lmao and he loves me. Enough said on that one...
Went to Landmark again last night with Jenna because she was trying to meet up with this kid Ryan she likes. I like him a lot, I think the two of them are an awesome match and its not often I approve of the guys she cares to spend her time with. We hung out with Joe Scialabbo last night who is suuuuuuuch a hottie and was eying me up last time we were at Landmark...thats until his drunk friend tried putting his tongue down my throat. Jenna bet me I wouldnt kiss him by the end of the night so being the way I am (I hate loosing) I took her up on it and won. The kid is a gooood kisser! I know Ill see him around so we'll see what happens with that....maybe Ill beat Jenna out on him (loooong story, the comment is really just for my own personal enjoyment).
Lets see Im going out to dinner with Mike tonight and Im pretty excited for that. Ive only ever gone out with him once and it was to breakfast back in June, I think. And beside the Ratdog concert and Infinity Front shows we only ever hung out in his condo or on the job. We have a lot of catching up to do and I miss seeing his face around so it should be a good night.
Ok I gotta take off, Im meeting my mom at Target to pick up some stuff for me at her place...
Peace
Ashlee
Current Music: "Hey...Hey..."~Dispatch
Working on things with Matt is a 2 steps forward, 1 step back process. Just when we get to a good place between us I allow slip ups and then he starts getting protective and attached again. Its rather strange but as I was typing that I got a view into some one else's head for a second and a greater understanding of a situation. Huh that was a nice little moment of clarity.
Ive been hanging out with Jenna Gags a lot again, I missed her. We had a falling out the end of last year and had started to put things our friendship back together this spring but hadnt seen or talked to her too much over the summer (which is always the case because ppl are so busy doing their own things). But recently we've been going out a lot together and having our good old heart to hearts. I missed her. Ive had girl friends that I can open up to and talk stuff over with, but never as complete and deep as Jenna...partly because she has such an insight into my past but mostly because she knows my character so damn well. Needless to say its been GREAT having her back around!!!
Still hanging out with Steve here and there. Things are kinda of weird on that front to say the least. I let him know a few weeks back exactly where I stood on my feelings with him a couple weeks ago and he didnt take that too well....turned into a dick and stopped talking to me for awhile...but I was only trying to be fair. He was really getting into me and I didnt want him to think this was going some place I had no intention on letting it get to. But we've started to hang out again here and there, trying to keep the conversation light because when it comes to deep shit he cant handle it. The kid has 1 level and when he starts to crack into deeper stuff he turns into a mess in every way you can think of. He just isnt a soul searcher simply because he just cant handle it. Which is fine, not everyone needs to be...but I need some one who is...
Met Jesus on Halloween at Landmark...lmao and he loves me. Enough said on that one...
Went to Landmark again last night with Jenna because she was trying to meet up with this kid Ryan she likes. I like him a lot, I think the two of them are an awesome match and its not often I approve of the guys she cares to spend her time with. We hung out with Joe Scialabbo last night who is suuuuuuuch a hottie and was eying me up last time we were at Landmark...thats until his drunk friend tried putting his tongue down my throat. Jenna bet me I wouldnt kiss him by the end of the night so being the way I am (I hate loosing) I took her up on it and won. The kid is a gooood kisser! I know Ill see him around so we'll see what happens with that....maybe Ill beat Jenna out on him (loooong story, the comment is really just for my own personal enjoyment).
Lets see Im going out to dinner with Mike tonight and Im pretty excited for that. Ive only ever gone out with him once and it was to breakfast back in June, I think. And beside the Ratdog concert and Infinity Front shows we only ever hung out in his condo or on the job. We have a lot of catching up to do and I miss seeing his face around so it should be a good night.
Ok I gotta take off, Im meeting my mom at Target to pick up some stuff for me at her place...
Peace
Ashlee
Current Music: "Hey...Hey..."~Dispatch
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