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Sunday, February 22, 2009
A Box of Rain Will Ease the Pain & Love Will See You Through
I just had the GREATEST work out...but I don't think I'm going to be able to lift up anything for the next few days. I skipped yesterday and did a 1/2 ass job on Friday so I needed to step it up (though I would've like to done more cardio, my body was just too tired). I give Jason a lot of credit because he was talking to me this morning about how his back hurt so bad he fell down in his kitchen and had to craw back to him bed and hasn't been able to leave it since. So I knocked all the weights up a notch and every time I thought I can't take it anymore I thought about how much he would kill to switch places with me and pushed on through. Some how I got to that point where pain didn't hurt anymore and then I was unstoppable!!! It was amazing. Oh god..listen to me...I'm sorry...I'm done!!!!
Yesterday Anthony came to watch my brother wrestle and I ended up having the most amazing day with him. I broke down Friday night and texted him after my brother's match because I knew how much he would enjoy going and this was his last match of the year...maybe ever if he doesn't do tournaments. By no means did I expect him to reply back or even want to come...but he did and it melted my heart. I'm glade he misses me as much as I miss him and I'm not the only one having a hard time with this. Time will heal all that's gone on between us and we'll get to a point where we know it's time to make things happen, I really do believe it now. In the mean time I'm going to miss him every second of every day. There is so much I want to do with him that I'm not too sure I'll get the chance to. Holidays, birthdays, trips, stuff like that. I'm sure he feels the same way but maybe at some point later on we'll have a chance to do all that. So what if this summer I don't get to drag him along to 25 Phillies games with me. Next year I'll make up for it and we'll go to 50 hahaha. That's just the way I have to look at it right now to push on through.
Megan and I ran into Evan the other night again at the Tavern. He's not Mike's twin, in fact Mike is a MUCH better person than this Evan guy ever could be. Granted he's cool and all but he's got A LOT of issues and thinks he's too cool for his own good. And all it took for me to realize this was another few hours of talking to him and a bowl...which always makes me much more insightful.
Megan on the other hand. Wow, girl's CRAZY. I'm a little jealous though I think there are some other things I'd like to try 1st before I branch out in the direction she took haha!!!!
Tristen is doing good. He's napping right now while I type this. God I would love to nap but I took a little one on the sofa this morning while he watched some cartoons so I'd be a bum if I laid back down now. Plus I'd never get to sleep tonight.
It's Sunday and something feels wrong. The weekend passed by in a weird way, parts of it felt like they were the middle of the week and the rest I feel like I wasted away. It's all melting together these days now that I don't get to share them with him. I feel like I've lived a month in the past week because I can't text or call him and share my day, my little quirks, things that make us both laugh. And the short amount of time I spent with him flew by like a dream...
Okay I suppose I should jump in the shower now and talk to my mom about dinner. I have something out for Tristen and I but I don't feel like cooking so maybe I can talk her into taking us out or getting a pizza or something. I'M STARVING!!! Being poor is a good way to loose weight because you don't have enough money to eat!
Peace & Love,
Ash
Current Music: "Box or Rain"~GD
Yesterday Anthony came to watch my brother wrestle and I ended up having the most amazing day with him. I broke down Friday night and texted him after my brother's match because I knew how much he would enjoy going and this was his last match of the year...maybe ever if he doesn't do tournaments. By no means did I expect him to reply back or even want to come...but he did and it melted my heart. I'm glade he misses me as much as I miss him and I'm not the only one having a hard time with this. Time will heal all that's gone on between us and we'll get to a point where we know it's time to make things happen, I really do believe it now. In the mean time I'm going to miss him every second of every day. There is so much I want to do with him that I'm not too sure I'll get the chance to. Holidays, birthdays, trips, stuff like that. I'm sure he feels the same way but maybe at some point later on we'll have a chance to do all that. So what if this summer I don't get to drag him along to 25 Phillies games with me. Next year I'll make up for it and we'll go to 50 hahaha. That's just the way I have to look at it right now to push on through.
Megan and I ran into Evan the other night again at the Tavern. He's not Mike's twin, in fact Mike is a MUCH better person than this Evan guy ever could be. Granted he's cool and all but he's got A LOT of issues and thinks he's too cool for his own good. And all it took for me to realize this was another few hours of talking to him and a bowl...which always makes me much more insightful.
Megan on the other hand. Wow, girl's CRAZY. I'm a little jealous though I think there are some other things I'd like to try 1st before I branch out in the direction she took haha!!!!
Tristen is doing good. He's napping right now while I type this. God I would love to nap but I took a little one on the sofa this morning while he watched some cartoons so I'd be a bum if I laid back down now. Plus I'd never get to sleep tonight.
It's Sunday and something feels wrong. The weekend passed by in a weird way, parts of it felt like they were the middle of the week and the rest I feel like I wasted away. It's all melting together these days now that I don't get to share them with him. I feel like I've lived a month in the past week because I can't text or call him and share my day, my little quirks, things that make us both laugh. And the short amount of time I spent with him flew by like a dream...
Okay I suppose I should jump in the shower now and talk to my mom about dinner. I have something out for Tristen and I but I don't feel like cooking so maybe I can talk her into taking us out or getting a pizza or something. I'M STARVING!!! Being poor is a good way to loose weight because you don't have enough money to eat!
Peace & Love,
Ash
Current Music: "Box or Rain"~GD
posted by A*s*h*l*e*e at Sunday, February 22, 2009
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